::mending the broken pieces of my life::

at one point i just dunt understand myself. i’ve not been into any serious relationship for quite some years and i’ve been wondering why…

sometimes tu, theres a lil of jealousy at the very corner of my heart when i look at some sweet couples..hehe..ye r, being a single, everything is all about u,urself and loneliness.(ceyh~~)..

kdg2 tu trase r ,nk g makan pon,mkn sorang2, henset pon senyap jek 2-3 hr, tu pon klu my dad x call,batt habis pon x sdar…sng cite, simpan dlm drawer pon x per. when it comes to special occasion, u dunno who to bring with,and part yg plg trase is  at times of ssh ke,sng ke, u dunno to share with who kan..last2 u tulis dlm blog like wut i did now..hahah…and when ur frens talking about their awek kan and their fairytale stories, the only thing u can do is angguk2, senyum2 and at some point interrupt sket to say some nice things like…"waa,sweetnye korang"…[-_-"]…pathetic isnt it?…

last week, my housemate issued a statement that i kinda menyampah gak r mendengar nya…he said:

"shitok,mke ko x de awek,ak brani potong jari la wey"…

mmm, it gives me an impression that, ppl nowadays are loser klu x de awek. and at the same time, its like ppl are creating a world that everyone must have a partner…uhuk2!!

my frens used to say some nice things to me like " shitok, ko ni memilih sgt la"…"ko usaha x kuat ni"…or " ko main2 la shitok, cuba siyes sket, br pompuan sangkut"…or "ko cpt ske pompuan" errmmm…i guess

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points will be easier taken by me klu u ppl ckp…"shitok, ko x hensem la sbb tu ko x de awek.."or ko x macho sgt la, x mcm kte org"..or lg sng " ko loser la"…hahah..eyp guys korang dh ade awek sng la ckp. korang hensem sng la dpt awek. no girls pon sangkut dkt ak, n klu ade pon mesti that girl pon desperate nak ade bf so they have no many choice in hands lah kan…x pon klu ak tersangkut kat any girls, either that girl dh ade balak or she is too good to be my partner…

hey~~

here, listen to my CONFESSION ppl..yes , i am single an available.not because m too selective or something,( the fact that kene reject sbb x hensem tu btolla la kot)  but i guess m not the kind that desperate nak ade partner (mb sbb tkt x kawen kot) that i just simply pick any one by the street and kapel!!..no~~somemore, nak msg more than 2 hours already bored me to death, m lost in my own words, and now u expect me to msg2 one particular girl 24/7. gimme a break…i love to do things on my own, sharing everything is not my style and i hate ppl instructing me to do this or that, telling me wut is good or wrong, or restraining me to do anything that i want at any time that i desire. i guess i m just not ready for any commitment yet.

i know later , half of

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life will be spent with one particular someone. so y not now, sementara msh boley, we spend the best of our time enjoying the life of being single to the fullest.mm..but i believe everyone has their own view about this. but being single isnt a sin and no one shud be intimidated by the fact that he/she is single.plus, the feeling of admiring someone dlm diam2 adalah sgt2 interesting.after all, i survive je so far…y cant u?…hahaha

lu pk la sendiri!!…

i am extremely,deeply,madly, really like her……..

I wasn’t fancied by many teachers when I was in a high school. pardon me to say this, but it’s the price you have to pay when u were a hottie in school la

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…ermm…jealousy I’d rather classified it…hahahah..[-_-“]..(ok fine,it was only a lame joke ok!!).

neway forget that, it’s pretty difficult to survive when every wardens’ eyes were looking at you suspiciously, annoying  enough to make you feel like screaming at them and say..

“oi puad, pa masalah ko ngan ak?"

I was quite a rebel back then..

But nevertheless the annoying wardens and a bunch of so called they-think-they-always-right teachers, (I’m dying to mention some names…haha), I still have few teachers that I valued the most until these days. the only teachers that will never judge the students by listening to people’s stories and accept them for what they are, not their discipline records or how many A’s they’ve got in the bag.

Among all, the best for me is always the love-rabiah. To describe how dedicated she is towards the students is never something that I can potray in a form of words. Her willingness to look after my batch despite the negative feedbacks and discouragement from other teachers was something amazing that only she can do. By the way, during my time, my batch has been labeled the worst batch in the history of the mankind-according to that bahtiar la..=D ( yes, I exaggerate a bit), but who geez what they said about us. Lol~~~we were happy okay!!..

Mdm Kayz as the name suggest, was the inspiration to me. When all my report card was full with red marks, she came to the aid. Working on a ‘bebal’ brain like me, not many can do..hehe…its a work of art u know. I was her masterpiece. (walaupun still gak bebal), and she was my protector as well. Believing in me without any doubt and dare to fight for me in the staff room, was an act of nobel…ceywahhhhhh~~~~…haha…since when I labeled myself as a nobel thing. Hahah…but I’m worth fighting for dow!!.=p…ask Najib.

So on this very special occasion, I just wanna wish both of them a very happy teachers’ day. I’m not good with words, but I guess my prayer will always be with them…=)…HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY…

amazing is just an understatement to describe her,

with her poise and beauty, ordinary man will just melt,

her voice keeps me breathing,

her eyes filled with love,giving me strength

her kiss eliminates years of pain…

i love her not only because how good she listens to my endless stories,

and also not because how calm she is when i am not,

but because of infinite more reasons which writing in a blog wouldnt do the justice for her…

i love her dearly for no particular reasons…and the feeling is getting stronger each days…

that there will be not a day in my life the feeling will fade…

i thank god for choosing me to be part of her life..

and i thank her, my mom for showering me with endless love and having me as her son….

-luv-

nazrin

a tribute to Mdm Suhidah bt Paidar, a mother to Nazrin,Hafiz and Fatin, and the wife of Mr Zainalabidin…

god bless you~~~..=)..i know eventually u will read this…

ahoy~~

life has been tremendously busy lately.

i’m in the middle of my final examination.i’m going mental by the end of this torturing experience.

life seems not happy, i am focusing so much on my studies these days, so they come out with ‘feeling’ matters, so that i dont have enough hands to handle my own things. i am mentally distraught,physically drained..T_T

if only i can tell lil kids out there, or my own child in the future..dun ever think of getting into university…its gradually killing u inside out.

but no matter what, life has never been kind.and i’m bearing with it till the end..u dare me life?

lately also, i’ve been watching many clips of political issues. its turning me off to see our reps on the parlimen acting like a brainless child..cursing vulgar language, debating over lil small matters when bigger issues are being deliberately ignored.

tell me, what is more important between the issue of raising ur hand during the angkat sumpah or the issue of kekurangan mknn in the market. and to add to my amusement, didnt Malaysia now is doing ‘pertanian’ instead of ‘perindustrian’ as the new NEP?how come bley lack of food?….no wonder la the political scenario in malaysia is getting ill. i’m not surprise if anuar is ruling the country one day, and i am more than happy to have him (though i’m not pro pembangkang) as the leader for his charisma and his brain. as the rakyat, we will opt for leaders that can reassure us of the good future of the country, and nowadays it seems like we are lacking in that in our current leaders. if this continue to happen, dont be surprised if i will be the kuching YB one day. or my cousin pon bley. then i will have my whole family la in the hall and of course my friends also can be part of the parlimen….

but still,4 papers to go….-_-"

tomorrow got 2 test, n ak x study even a bit.. pale pening..T_T

got 3 projects to submit esok..bridge presentation, (mcm cnfirm fail je deflection)…..and another just newly discovered assignment…T___T

i am broke…duit elaun dh guna beli tiket blk..mkn maggi laaa dis month..T_____T

and….for god sake…i miss her..miss her even much more tyme dgr dis one song….T_________T