::mending the broken pieces of my life::

it has been 3 weeks im doing my internship training with PCSB,SKO.(for those who doesnt know, it stands for PETRONAS CARIGALI SARAWAK OPERATIONS).

m attached at Well Integrity Engineering Dept..or in short BWE dept..

like many, i was puzzled with what does that crap BWE stands for…what i need to do, n what will i learn there…

when i first came to work, i have this proud feeling when i walked into the entrance door of PETRONAS  main building. yeala…not everyone afford to work with petronas la kan..n PETRONAS itself is a huge name..(though m only an intern).

i was mesmerized with the scenery of engineers(wearing coverall),corporate people and contractors walking in and out of the building.some more  i noticed quite a number of hot chix or hot engineers(engineer make it sounds sizzling i guess), and for sure hot mom with thick make up and heels…i was ecstatic.ho yeah2~~the adrenaline rushing fast throughout my body..(hahahah)

however, my dream was crashed when i was told my department office is located at the old block 800metres from the main building.isolated.

nevertheless, my colleagues, mainly consist of very young engineers(most of them r utp graduates,which makes my life easier),old utp interns, 2 clerks,n a secretary r very friendly and helpful..n i feel at home.

let me brief u a bit on wut my dept is doing. (i might be speaking GERMAN to some people, but just pretend u understand ok)..=p

well integrity is basically a petroleum engineering department where it deals with well services. in simple language, my department main job is to make sure every oil well in Miri is producing oil. so we have to do anything and everything to ensure the oil is producing and wont be finished until its time.

i am assigned to get in charge of the operations on the balingian cluster. under this balingian cluster, there are 4 fields (temana,D18,Bayan,D35) and under this specific oild fields, there are many wells…it sounds huge isnt it…and it does huge man..due to the constraint of the engineers, we interns have to do the real job of the real engineers. it is a big responsiblity man.but i am excited…hehe

so for this first month..all i need to do is study. many things are so new to me as my background is civil engineering and this petroleum things never crossed any of my syllabus. so i came across the terms like reservoir,wireline,watercut,wellhead etc in which is very GERMAN to a civil student like me. luckily, the engineers,the old trainees are so nice that they conducted classes for us.

every morning at 730, we have to attend morning meeting. there we meet with our clients.(slb,BJ,TC,AMSITO,DELCOM) i was surprised even the engineer from schlumberger is UTP graduate and by chance i knew this lady. haahahah..it makes our life even easier..all over the place are utp graduates here in SKO…it looks like, UTP never get apart form the O&G industry.

the first meeting was a messed. i was lost.but i got to catch up each days…and to my surprised, on the second week, we were brought to BJ meeting..omg…its huge…one good thing is, i got to expand the network.not only within the PETRONAS, but of coz with our clients as well.( here, u dun have to call the old timer, abg,uncle,mr or encik..we call them by their own name and it is cool man)

but not everyday is a new day…there was a day that i spent the whole day, sleeping,watching series or counting time for the lunch.(lunch at 12-1)…there were times that i felt so bored…(i was assigned the task to study as much as i can about the operation and petroleum engineering and will be tested in 2 weeks time, but it is a long period to go, i can always handle last minit man…heheh..)

i go back iat 430 in the evening…and i go to sleep at 10 everyday( awalkan…but now i understand y working people sleep early..bcoz WE r tired ..=p)…and the routine goes again..and again..everyday…

no wonder, when u work, u’ll appreciate ur student life more than anyone else…n i did miss my uni life…=(

m starting a new life as intern tomorrow..in miri here..with petronas carigali

nervous beb~~i dunno wut to expect..

but hopefully everything will be fine..

i started to feel the hardship of starting a new life…need to find rent house,managing the house,the finance and everything..

thnx god my parents r very supportive that they bought me a car for this purpose..(i never ask for one)..so don have to think abt the transport now…

btw…i miss my utp frens so much…..i regret that i take some of them for granted…esp my roomate..hehe…sorry yeah…n noli,ezzah,n peke…n edy,comberg,kecik,areen n many more…..

i regret that on the last day i spent most of the time studying for the final paper, n did not have time to catch up with some of them…..

but life has to go on anyway…cant wait to see these guys after returning back from the training…sigh..8 months to go,…

when i blog, i have always tried not to start with today i…..i find it so lame n cliche~~

but at this very second, i could not think of any other words that can replace that common phrase…

today, i was so fucked up. so messed up…

i believe, everyone has the best moment of their life. the one that they will never trade for anything else in the world to have it to be put at the back of their mind.

i had one too, just recently.  but i could not really have it. . this moment of mine was spectacularly beautiful but a disastrous one as well.

it was amazingly phenomenal, that it psyches every single nerve of my body,just thinking about it. i could stay sober doing nothing the whole day smiling happily just to have it crossing my mind.it just so wonderful that i wish the time would stop ticking for me.

but for every beautiful moment, it does not always come with cinderella ending. and mine was the ugly one. it destroys everything that i have built for years. the faith, the integrity, the attitude, the confidence,the pride…and most importantly it destroys me myself,inside out.i got so messed up that i was confused of who i am.it just doesnt feel me and i despise it.i was just so lost.

half of me was mourning for whatever has happened, yet half of me was glad that i have done it. this was the moment that i would be dying to have it to happen again but somehow i dont want it to happen in any possible way it could be happening.

i pity myself for my own stupidity and my lack of emotion control. and i pity that someone that it happened and i am deeply sorry….

p/s this entry is purposely posted with the intention that, it will be the prove that it happened and when i read it in the future, it will be my personal reminder of whatever has happening to me at this very particular minute.

Merdeka day is just few days away, but the heat is yet to be felt…
many said, go to hell with merdeka’s day…it is just like the other day..but with holiday attach to it..
and many believe in globalization, the world without boundaries.we should think global and act universally..so, being patriotic is a lame stuff..we should not worry about the country anymore because the country is only a piece of land with name, in where u r residing…the government will take care of it..full stop.
but ironically, i believe inversely. modernization has its toll to pay. and the price has shown up.
will you let strangers to invade your house or let your house open when you are not around because you believe in globalization. you wont isnt it.
look at the conditions of the country. a 5 years old kid can tell ours are not in a manageable one.
i am not pointing fingers, but i believe DSAI invites these chaos and the not-so-firm PM makes thing worst.
i’m not telling you DSAI is a bad person or i am doubting his good akhlak. but will u let someone who believe too much in globalization, and badmouthing  your country before strangers lead you…
will u let someone who set up chaos and let strangers to get involve in our own country’s affair to be our leader?..
i wont…
people should think about this…
tun Mahathir despises Israel, America and its sekutu, but he is labelled vicious.
but him who shouted about ‘keadilan’ and invites the unstability of the country is being idolised….
i doubt wether the country will meet its happy ending this coming merdeka….

yesterday was the day…
the D-day…
i was standing rite behind him..only inches away..
i can see the wrinkles on his face,listen to his very own voice and the most importantly, i know he is wearing CASIOSport watch…=p
he is so simple yet, the aura is so huge..it hits everyone present tremendously…
i can see everyone present were so eager to meet him,shaking his hand,taking pictures and tell him how much they love him and how much he meant to the country..
this moment really moved me…=)…
for all this while, i’ve been only watching him on TV, reading his blog for like everyday, studying about him and his contribution to the country…and now i was just standing inches away behind him!!!..
i was standing behind Tun Dr Mahathir u know..hahahhaha…
this was the moment that i wont fail to tell my son…the proud moment…=)

omg!!..i just realize m actually a NERD!!…

for the facts that:

• i read books..a lot!!..i do books more than muvi,games,party,club,karok etc…
• i can tell u every detail  of HARRY POTTER more than i can tell u about GODFATHER…
• i worry more on incomplete assignments than Rainforest festival
• i always wanted to wear casual smart with tie,white longsleeve,sleek black pants and polished leather shoes (..and driving BMW..hehe)
• i now listen to Jason Mraz ..
• i dont smoke..(sometimes,only if u offer me non-menthol)
• and for many other details that i wont dare to disclose here ..scary!!

o my god!!

recently, i was flying morning flight with Malaysia airlines. as usual,(a frequent traveller wud be bored on board,so normally food serving is the peak of the event la ) i was looking forward towards the breakfast served by the airline as they always provide yummy mummy meals. (of coz at the same time u’ll be able to ngorat2 or cuci mata tgk kawaii~~~ stewardess..aduss).btw, they used to have morning nasi lemak yg sgt2 sedap u kno, n my fren told me (i donno wether it is true or not) the nasi lemak cost a fortune. it was like RM40 or something close to that for a single meal.

so that morning, the meal options were between ommelete and sarawak’s mee kolok. coincidentally,that nite i was "mengidam" mee kolok, so delightfully i chose mee koloklah. since that airlines never suceed to disappoint me, of coz i’d expect the mee kolok is ‘lain dr yg lain’..agik nyaman la in simple words..dengan sudu and garfu di tangan ( mee kolok is best eat with chopstick,i donno y they do not have this common sense..aiyark!!), i opened the container. wah!!!..the mee kolok looked dull la…and where is the soup?.is this some how mee kolok goreng!!..but i was still cool then. with perut yg lapar (as i told my mum,no need to prepare breakfast for me,coz i’m looking forward towards the in flight meal), i tried the so called mee kolok, and to my DISAPPOINTMENT, it was TASTELESS!!!no taste at all!!..merik malu org swk ajak…i was so frustrated.

1. because i was damn hungry

2. because i was ‘mengidam’ and have high expectation towards that 5 stars airlines services

3. because i am the native of sarawak. i grew up eating mee kolok, and i kno that mee kolok is awesome. everyone who come to visit sarawak never fail to eat that local food and it is the main attraction of tourist. and suddenly, the no 1 malaysia airlines is serving TASTELESS mee kolok, and without doubt it will give bad impression about our local food..

aiyark~~..tolong la mr Idris jala, u are sarawakian also…pls fix this..dont make us ashame with our own food….aiyark~~~

i probably not clever enough to speak on political issues of the country, but i do read ,listen and observe a lot that i guess that wud be enough to qualify me to make the judgment of the current scenarios of politics and economics issues and come out with bad conclusions.

i never bothered about it, until lately, whatever that’s happening is so damn anoyying that i’ll be blind enough not to care about it. i have to be sincere, i’m kinda patriotic guy (ngeh ngeh ngeh),despite my mohawk hair.haha…i recalled,during my school days,when it was the month of ‘kemerdekaan’, i nearly shed tears when asked to sing patriotic songs..=p..it damn touched me u kno..but due to my machoness, i acted cool. enuff said about that.

neither that i want to critic Pak Lah’ s government, nor that i’m supporting Anwar Ibrahim, but today, everything on tv or papers were just like hindi dramas. u never know which side is telling u the truth. however, i dont care who ever will win in long fight,because the real verdict is given by god.so they know it themselves la. the only thing that i’ll ask from the government is the stability of the country,the strong state of economy and less controversy made by the politicians.

i’ve been a great fan of Mahathir’s blog recently. www.chedet.com(and of coz i adore him too). i was kinda insulted towards some people who bluntly criticised this old bloke. one of my friend told me, Mahathir should stop criticising the current government,let Pak Lah do his own thing, and focus more on the afterlife.after all, Mahathir was the "zalim" guy upon Anwar imprisonment. to tell u the truth, i’m totally pissed off hearing this. (u dont know how true the story goes,yet u already make the conclusions.)to me, what ever Mahathir is doing now, criticising here and there, it is not for his own sake. never once he get paid for it nor he get the reputation for doing so. in return, people are blaming him,hating him,or talking bad about him (without any sense of respect towards ‘org tua’) for being a ‘nyanyuk ex-PM’ regardless of whatever he has done for the country today. kurang asam~~.

WHATEVER he did,he do it for the country. The same thing applies nowadays. he foresees the falling of Malaysia’s economy and stability,the split in UMNO/BN,the outcry of the people and the most crucial thing is the lack of love towards Malaysia the Country.THAT IS THE MAIN REASON HE CRITICISED. he fears the country that was fought for by many "pejuang bangsa’, built by passionate leaders, maintained and developed by great people in the past will be falling apart. we are not we are today  if it is not because of him and people in the past. (but of coz by god’s will also la,but god wont help if we do not work hard kan ). he foresees all the disaster. so he acted before ‘nasi menjadi bubur’. he doesnt care if people hate him, if people call him names, but as long as he could save the country, that will be enough for him. the idea of this modern’ perjuangan really moved me.

the recent post by TUN Mahathir really reached my heart.it somehow makes the urban teenage like me realize how important it is to protect the country. of coz nowadays no perang2 la. and the article written by Tan Sri Nor Yaakop (the current 2nd finance minister ) about Dr Mahathir on the financial crisis 1997-1998 really wept me.(http://jebatmustdie.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/oh-my-god-is-this-pm-stupid/ )when everyone was senang lenang tidur,makan,enjoy tgk tv, our then PM was working hard to save the country.u shud read the article people..isk isk isk…such a genius and noble act by him.superb!!marvelous!!bravo!!!

so, regardless of wut ppl said about my beloved Tun Dr Mahathir, (kejam ka,nyanyuk ka, tua ka,gila ka,)…i dont give a damn. who cares when this old bloke has proven to the world how good he is in leading small country like Malaysia,ckp2 kosong or keji from dengki people is just like an ant’s bite.my support is always with u Dr Mahathir. cheyyyyywah~~~~~~~

last nite i was being introduced to this one dull looking book. TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE by MITCH ALBOM.

for this many years, there has never been a book that makes me weep, but this book did make me weep in the end. based on true story, a wonderful book, a story of the heart that everyone should read. the story line, writing style is much different from any book available at the store nowadays.

i bet, this book will touch your heart in many ways that u cudnt imagine. every pages of the book makes u feel warm and u’ll be sank in its unembarassed love….

to ulat buku like me, this one book is the book that u shudnt miss having it (though i’m borrowing it from my fren..haha)..

currently m reading FROM THE LAND OF GREEN GHOST by PASCAL KHOO THWE…i’ll let u kno if u shud read this one too…and m looking frwrd to have pendragon book 5…ciow..

hi there~~

it has been a while since my last post kan. nothing much has happend except the fact that i’m home n doing nothing…i’d like to believe so..ermm…

i have made some efforts looking for part time job at the beginning of my holiday…but to no avail…so, dh mls eh…

being home is so good…but there were times, i felt damn bored, i was thinking of  going back to that hell tronoh…but in the end i give up the idea lah..haha…being home is still soooooooooo my god goooodddd lah!!!…BUT  still i cannot simply goyang kaki lah..i have big challenge to handle.. which is to keep myself in shape…ssh lah wei ..with so many nice food..T_T..luckily lah my mom bought weighing scale at home, so every time after makan, the whole family timbang berat…every time the pointer go beyond our normal weight, everyone go excercising.funny isnt it!!.. fortunately got machine exercise juak, so don have to go jauh2 joging la…=)

and last nite i read on the net on how to eliminate ur belly fat..the most stubborn fat on earthla kan..so need to do some research la..(last time during gathering, time mandi2, this one good fren of mine dah ada 6 packs ooo, muscle2 gik ya..n i’m a bit jeles la..but the gathering was month ago, and only now i do my reseache..adoyai~~)..and from my research, i find out that..SSHLAH  to eliminate that bloody belly fat…it doesnt work with only 300 sit ups..NEVER WORK u kno…u have to jaga mkn, jog everyday,and do a lot of carb excercise…damn it..so i give up la that idea..m happy with my current tummy…hoho…

recently, i’m so indulge into the idea of having a business.. i learned from a good fren of mine ( need to give credit to her, ateelya)..that jual besi really make money. and i did jual besi u kno!!..and it does give money man!!!…for a start, i went around my house looking for rusty besi, like besi katil, rack, ketel lamak etc…i got RM40+ for that benda buruk…gosh!!!…so starting that moment, everyday lah i roam2 the city looking for besi buruk…hahah..its  really fun u kno.. full of excitement and THRILL!!! (cannot tell the details)….its electrifying when in the end of the day u got big money!!…but not everyday la u’ll get money because besi is not everywhere..

so ppl, if u have besi buruk and donno where to dump the trash, just type BESI and send to 0128817280 ok!!..=p…i’ll ensure no more besi buruk at ur house…

till then…

out for ‘ops besi’..

-rin-(kat umah ak di tunggah rin,naz kan…so for this time no -shitok- ok)